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  • After 40+ Years, I Finally Will Meet MY SISTER!!!!

    After 40+ Years, I Finally Will Meet MY SISTER!!!!

    When I was a little girl, I would always dream about having my big sister come live with us in America.  I wanted to have bunk beds so when she came to live with us, we could share a room.  I always wanted to have my big sister in my life.  Finally, decades later, this dream is about to come true!

    I GET TO MEET MY BIG SISTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    I can't even write this without tears coming to my eyes.  I can't even begin to tell you how this feels in my heart.  This is a total gift from God! It is only for a few hours on a layover, but I don't even care if it was only for a few minutes.  I get to hug my sister!!! 

    My mom came to America after the Vietnam war.  She married my dad who served in the United States Air Force. When she left the Philippines, she left behind a little girl, her name was Susan, my big sister. We have the same mom, but different dads.  My mom truly believed that she could eventually bring my sister to America once she and my dad could make enough money. It never happened.  We grew up poor, but my brother and I have always wondered why, why could we never meet our half-sister?  My brother and I always wanted to meet her... our big sister!

    Our parents are in Heaven now, and we never really got the chance to know about my mom's side of the family.  We just knew we had a big sister in the Philipppines that my mom loved very very much.  We remember the letters they would write back and forth, but we couldn't read them because they were written in Tagalog.  We talked to our sister on the phone once or twice.  Said "Hello." I rememember that being so weird because we would say "my mom.. uh...I mean OUR mom." 

    My mom died about 18 years ago.  We tried to find Susan but we just had such a hard time.  We didn't have social media back then.  A few years ago, when my mom's mom  was very sick, she told my sister to "please find your brother and sister in America."  Then she passed away and that is when my sister googled me and my brother and found us via social media.  We have been in touch ever since. We actually have a lot of family in the Philippines, that we never knew about.  My sister married a German man and now she lives in Germany. 

    I am traveling in Nepal right now with a team from YWAM, and when we were traveling last December, our return flights for March were changed to have a layover in Germany.  INSTANTLY I contacted my sister and was like " WE MIGHT GET TO MEET IN A FEW MONTHS!!!!!!!!!"

     So I asked my leaders if I could possibly meet her at the airport. I prayed about it over the last few months.  I was so prepared for the answer to be no. That the rules won't allow me to leave the airport to meet my sister.  

    I remember praying about it a couple nights ago and God said "Are you will to lay down your rights to the rules? Are you willing to get a no and accept it?" I said "Yes Father."  I was already prepared for my leader, Hanz, to tell me "I am sorry we can't arrange this for you."  And to be OK with it, hurt, but OK. So I prayed and asked God to help me be humble, lay down my right to meet her, this is not the responsiblity of my team leaders,  and I was ready to accept the no.

    Then Hanz said "I am going to go with you to meet her" and I lost it... all I could say to her was "THANK YOU!" As I write this I am still tearing up.  If you read my older posts, this trip has been a "Jubilee experience" for me because I really feel God has returned to me the love and memories of my mother through the Nepalis here.  This is just full circle.  God has given me back my mom and my sister. The debts of the past have been paid and this is His gift to me. 

    And my faith in people has been restored in so many ways on this trip, and when Hanz told me she was really working for this to happen for me and my sister, at that moment, God restored my faith in people, again, full circle.  

    The Holy Spirit is for us, NOT against us.  The Holy Spirit loves us. He goes about things in ways we could never expect. And that is ok, becasue with His love, I am whole again.....

    “My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord.
        “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine."

    Isaiah 55:8